Renny, year zero

Wow. Serenity is five today. Five trips around the sun culminating with a solar eclipse. What started out as an idea has become a person. One of the last things my dad did was try to convince me how fulfilling getting married and having a child was. Him and I spent many of nights talking,[…]

I love.

Life is to be enjoyed. If you can only see the negative in life, you are focused on the wrong things. Life is an amazing chemical reaction that we are just now beginning to comprehend. Sure it’s like Ronnie says, it’s like if you take Kool-Aid (powder) and add water you have Kool-Aid, yes. Why[…]

Better than (then) most

  Utterly alone Not free to find love. I have what’s important. I am not. I have a lead! Come home now You are not free For fuck’s sake, it’s fucking three. What happened? Why the talk? You don’t need to know. That’s for you to never find out You aren’t important to me You[…]

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Today was a day of discovery, realization, and acceptance.  What does one feel when one knows he’s just a cog? Unimportant, replaceable, not special.  It’s all worth it. Keep going my friend. 

FMV Gaming

From TOTLB.com Star Trek Borg is my favorite FMV (full motion video) game and is available absolutely for free download here because it’s old and considered obsolete. I don’t think it is, and here is why. As a child, I loved to read choose your own adventure books. I think mostly because I was lazy and somehow[…]

The next chapter 

The continuous cycle of break-ups and reconciliation and feeling like a gypsy, or a bird not knowing where my home is, (I own a house, but that doesn’t mean I have a home) has been making me feel physically ill as of late. I get confused sometimes. Today I was convinced I may have cancer,[…]

Spring Cleaning 

Today I woke up with energy and purpose. I thought I’d clean for a little bit, then I ended up cleaning all of the day time. Now to work through the night. All in all a good day. It feels good to accomplish.