Utterly alone Not free to find love. I have what’s important. I am not. I have a lead! Come home now You are not free For fuck’s sake, it’s fucking three. What happened? Why the talk? You don’t need to know. That’s for you to never find out You aren’t important to me You[…]
I had dolls growing up which would help teach me to become a dad one day. The first one I remember was a boy plastic baby doll I had convinced my parents to buy me from a convenience store. It was hanging on a white pegboard in a clear bag with a folded cardboard top[…]
Today was a day of discovery, realization, and acceptance. What does one feel when one knows he’s just a cog? Unimportant, replaceable, not special. It’s all worth it. Keep going my friend.
From TOTLB.com Star Trek Borg is my favorite FMV (full motion video) game and is available absolutely for free download here because it’s old and considered obsolete. I don’t think it is, and here is why. As a child, I loved to read choose your own adventure books. I think mostly because I was lazy and somehow[…]
Day one I picked up this antique AM radio from Bonita Springs this morning. My best research tells me this is from 1929, the year my dad was born. The plan is to restore it and listen to some old time radio, and probably Radio Disney with Serenity. CA Earl Schematics PDF Day two Today Serenity[…]
The continuous cycle of break-ups and reconciliation and feeling like a gypsy, or a bird not knowing where my home is, (I own a house, but that doesn’t mean I have a home) has been making me feel physically ill as of late. I get confused sometimes. Today I was convinced I may have cancer,[…]
Today I woke up with energy and purpose. I thought I’d clean for a little bit, then I ended up cleaning all of the day time. Now to work through the night. All in all a good day. It feels good to accomplish.
A lot of people don’t know I suffer from the effects of undiagnosed Lyme disease. I had it for about 3 years before doctors even discovered Lyme. They helped me with many weeks of antibiotics through Intervenous and saved me. Going so long not being properly diagnosed, in that much pain and confusion (the doctors[…]
So…. life. Life, while not perfect, is much better than this time a year ago. I’m getting to spend everyday with Renny, who is my joy. Friends, some family, jobs, credit, and my podcast production company have suffered. Honestly I have lost a lot in my life that made me… me. I was in crisis mode[…]