2017 was a difficult year, but an improvement from 2016. This year I had my lowest time, four weeks without my daughter. Something I would never choose and wouldn’t do again for a chance at a million dollars. After I got her back, my life has steadily improved.
There have been many challenges, but I’ve overcome most of them. I’m lucky that I know what my one thing is and everything I do is in support of that one thing. It helps guide my decisions. What is best for that one thing, and am I doing all I can for it.
I’m catching up everywhere despite major financial challenges. This is due in part to losing one job and being able to wholeheartedly focus on the other. I’ve made big strides at work and am very grateful to my bosses for believing in me. If everything stays on track, I should be caught up by March on payday.
I saved the house from foreclosure this year. That was a job in and of itself.
My only goals for the new year are to keep the momentum going and hopefully make a meaningful connection with at least one other person. I had a short connection in 2017, but it wasn’t meant to be. The loneliness is very difficult, but I’m not focusing on it. If I’m not meant to have friends, it is what it is, but I feel it will all work out eventually.
I have a lot of hard work ahead of me to get to where I want to be, but most importantly is enjoying the journey because that is all there is.
I’m finally able to enjoy life again. I don’t ever want to get back to that dark place. I’m a year older, wiser, and I feel I have finally matured above the need to be wanted, liked, needed, and now have the ability to be myself. Call it disappointed, jaded, or just realizing that magic or trust doesn’t exist. Maybe that’s what one learns at level 42.